Khota!

look, i know im lazy, ok? but im not like dying or anything :) so i was uspposed to have a little surgery, but had to wait for the infected cyst (yes anonymous it is sebaceous.. eeeew lol) to heal. its on theback of my right shoulder and that makes it wvery annoying coz i cant rest my back on anything. rather coudlnt until a few days ago. its not only healed but also dissappeared to quite an extent. and i guess within a week ro two will just go off on its own. for two years i dont care about it until it started to apprently GROW. but i guess the infection was ahealing process? i really dont know. i got more things to worry about! last week started of great. for no particular reason after quite some time i was feeling awesome. it felt like winter again! heh. yeah, i associate winter with all the good things. especially fresh crisp air. all that ozone burning ur lungs. i wont even begin to state what rain is for us. but hey i live in a desert, so u should understand. :P the latest addition of wooden furniture in my house is a rocking chair. my dad got it, custom made, irrespective of the fact that there really wasnt a place to keep it. so as usual, it ended up in my room. its fun to see my mom try to balance herself on it. she thinks she'll fall back. heh. im not interested in sitting on it, as i know i'll get motion sickness. i just dont understand how people manage to read sitting in one. all that rocking. how can u keep ur eyes solely focused on the words. dont u see everything moving to and fro on both ur sides. DOESN'T THAT GIVE YOU A HEADACHE!? Schools started for everyone including me. But i hate mine so i didnt join this semester. heh. My parents and siblings are seriously concerned about my mental health now. I've just lost interest. In a way. What with all the waasta that goes on over here. piss off. So yeah, i was having a great week. But life plays this weird see saw rule with me. Im depressed when everyone around me has a reason to be celebrating. And when im celebrating for no obiovus reason, one after another, people around me are getting on the low. Then i become sad too. But that doesnt quite bring back the happy in their life. So then we're all sad. lol. At 1am yesterday Oasis Center, a shopping mall over here, caught fire. Three shops got burnt. It was a typical rig insurance money gig. But heres whats retarded. Someone saying that Dubai got bombed. lol. someone who passed by the place and saw flames that is. What is it with all these people who can make up their minds about what careers to pursue and then stick to them? Why can't i do that? I've NEVER ever wnated to pursue any particular career. I mean, everyone i've come across has felt passionately about pursuing one somewhere in their life time, even if it were as a 6 year old. But me? Never. Whhhhhhhyyyyyyyyy :( Not that i really care you know. For me, money is just a means of survivial. Theres nothing more to it for me. I thrive on humans/family/friends. lol. As long as i know good humans, i'm content. Some how that culture doesnt exists here. You can't just do "anthing" . People WANT you to pursue a career. :-/ Enuf ranting eh? I better go get some sleep. Long day ahead. :) Thanks for the well wishes, but, hey, you didnt really think lucifer would go to hell alone yeah? im takin you all along with me when i leave :P